heyy

ok this hole updating everyday thing
not working out...
so im going to update every sunday or many a few times a week
but its only going to be on my tumblr

1/15

MIDTERMS ARE OVER!!

WOO!

im so happy about that!

i want to go see stay tomorrow nightt...

i think i might be going...(=

im talking to derek from mayday parade(=

all time low said who they are touring withfor spring out...

fall out boy,

metro station,

cobra starship&

hey monday...

i HATE fall out boy&metro station!!!

and its an arena

i hate arena shows!

but ill still most likely go(=

im going to go watch tv now.

PEACE!

-AliciaAutomatic!

1/14

sorry i havnt been on,

its mid-terms at my school...

but they end tomorrow!

and i cant waitbut the good part is i get out early

at like 10:40 i get out!

woo!

i still have this nasty cold)=

i hate it!

i signed up for voice lessons yesterday!

so im happy about that,

because it was part of my goal for '09

and im starting to complete goals for '09

andit just started 14 days ago!

wow thats 2 week!

well im going to go blowdry&straigten my hairr.

add lannen fall

www.myspace.com/lannenfall

(=

1/9

srry fo rmy lack of updating=(

schools just killing me

----last nights lannen fall show----

caroline came over my house around 5ish and we frosted the cupcakes.I left my house around 5:20ish and got to jessicas around 5:40.we got to aces around 6:10ish.doors didn't open till 6:30 so we just sat inside the place but we couldn't go where all the bands were.at 6:30 we went and talked to jay and gave him the cupcakes but he wouldn't look at the bear till all the band was there.he was happy about the cupcakes=).me,caroline and jess kinda just stood around talking well they talked and I was singing the words and dancing getting funny looks from everyone=).the first band was some screamo band I don't know how to type their name but they were good live,suck on myspace and durning their set a circle pit started and I would have gotten hit if the guy next to me didn't grab my arm so thanks to that dude!after their set we went and talking to some cool people and sean,I argud with sean alittle then hollywood lies player they were good they played low and I was like dancing and singing and I was in the middle of the crowd and no one else was it was kinda awkward.after they played we walked around for alittle bit.then stay played and they played call her hollywood 2nd and that's my favorite song so I was singing and dancing and the singer pointed at me it was so funny!then durng the like 4 song the singer pointed at me agean because it was an old song and I knew all the words=).after they finshed their last song I ran to lannen falls merch to get a poster but they were all out but I told the merch girl what I wanted it for so she gave me some merch paper thing and I talked for acouple more seconds then ran over and borrowed the sharpie they were using to mark peoples hands and I wrote "woo:) lannen fall<3" it="(" bathroom=").then" it=").sean">

1/6

sorry i havnt been on i have a really bad cold=(
i hate being sick so much!!

i have mid-terms next week
and finals in gym&fs math(freshamn math)

i am not looking forward to midterms
goodpart is its half a days because of them!
so im pumped for less class!

i still dont feel 1005 but im getting better from being sick

im going to go sorry its so short...

PEACE,
AliciaAutomatic!

1/2

so today was a good day

i went to the mall and swent shopping

isnt that was you do at malls^

anyways i got...

new body spray,

something i cant say because its a surprise!

mnt dew 24 fl pz

chex mix(chedder)

AND THE BEST THING OF ALL!...

i hoodie from pac sun its black and is fuzzy<3

im listening to lannen fall!

if you dont know them your a n00b look them up!

www.myspace.com/lannenfall

and if you live in mass go to the show on the 9th!

so yeahh i have nothing more to say

expect im going to the cape tommrrow[sp?]!

so yeahh

PEACE,

AliciaAutomatic

alittle something i wrote

when i look in the mirror,i see a girl that doesnt know where she belongs

someone thats lost herself threw all the crazyness that goes on around her.

she has lost her self and is trying to find the person she used to call "me"

she hides behind the thing she knows best music

shes always scared of leting everyone down

always doing what others want and not what she wants herself,

she doesnt know where to turn because

she scared that she well turn the wrong way.

as she walks down the halls to go to classes she holds her books

close to her chest trying to become invisible

shes had her heart broken more than enough times but not by boys but

by the people she wonce loved

her family and friends

(NO NO NO

she wont let you win)

she no longer can trust people fully

even though she knows they are trust worthy

scared one day they might turn their back and share all her thoughts

she pours her heart out to the only thing she knows the pen and the paper

people always ask her 'what are you writing'but she cant let you read it

because then you'll know all her thoughts and feelings that are rushing around in her head.

NO NO NO

SHE WONT LET YOU WIN.

YOU ACT LIKE YOU CARE BUT

IN YOUR HEAD YOUR WONDERING WHEN SHE'LL STOP TALKING.

she wonders herself about is there every going to be one person

that well understand her with out her having to say a word.

maybe that someone is already here but she just cant simply open her heart up.

can she?

this girl is not broken

she is just simply confused about everything

this is not something you can fix

by sitting their and trying to get her to open up to you when she just met you

NO NO NO

she wont let you win.